10599119_10203601377747999_2574921403344389782_nSo just who is Kerry Milauskas anyway? An aspiring… well umm everything. Isn’t life about aspiring to be something better than yourself? I’ve staked out this spot on the internet to document my journey in life. Everything that has led up to this moment is engraved into my soul and now I must decide where the journey will lead next. If your into voyeurism well than you are in the right spot, you have an open invitation into the world I’m willing to share.

When I was a kid I desperately wanted to be an artist when I grew up. I wanted to be creative but I didn’t really have any natural abilities in that department. My mother did send me for private art lessons for awhile and I loved it. I wanted to play the guitar but didn’t know anyone that could teach me to play. I loved to read books and tried to write my own. But as I grew up I moved away from all that, life got in the way.

I had to get a job to pay rent and it wasn’t a job I loved. I forgot the joy of trying to create something with my own imagination. I forgot about my imagination completely and just focused on what ever the task was at hand. Then I became addicted to video games and that took up my attention for many years. I still play but at a more casual level. I don’t let myself become swept up in a virtual world anymore.

Now that I’m not in such a desperate situation as I was when I was a young adult I actually have a lot more time for myself and my interests. I have a good job that I enjoy (most days lol). I’m married and live with my partner in a nice neighborhood in a house that is perfect for us. I don’t have any kids to take up all my time and my 3 cats don’t require much.

Three years ago I started learning how to play piano. It’s been a dream of mine since the 90’s when I was obsessed with Tori Amos. She is awesome on the piano and I don’t think I’ll ever be as good as her but it’s not going to stop me from trying! I do get bummed out sometimes when I am practicing though because I thought when I started that 3 years would be enough time for me to really start jamming and play any song that I love. But that is not the case. I don’t know if it is like that with every instrument but the piano is hard! Plus it doesn’t help that I have tiny hands and can barely play an octave. Also my pinky on my right had is a little bent from breaking it when I was a kid and it never set properly.

I love to draw. I’m not very good at it but it relaxes me in a way that almost nothing else can. I draw designs that I see or I try to copy cartoon characters from the internet. I was getting kind of sick of all the black and white so I bought some colored pencils… Why does anyone ever stop coloring? It’s so satisfying to see the bright colors going onto a boring white page.

I’ve also started to write a novel. It’s about a guy who is a blogger striving for a better online reputation but in doing so he ignores his wife and she turns on him. I’m just at the beginning stages with it but it’s been fun coming up with the story idea and creating the characters who will gain life on every page that I write.

So stick around if you are interested!